Playing Free Cell and pondering…
I have a wonderful friend who suggested that I make a visual representation for what I want to pursue professionally. We had thrown around some terms when we met, and I have been piddling with it, mostly terrified to tackle the lay-out, but anyway I started it.
And walked away.
And started it and walked away and this is three weeks of this nonsense.
As I was playing Free Cell and thinking about how I *should* be working on this other thing, I had another thought about what needed to be added. I need to work with people who embrace and support growth.
Well, no kidding.
It seems obvious, but this is a huge thing that I have recognized. One of the things that I loved about turning 40 is what I call, “implied competence” which means that I am not spending the first 6 months of a job proving myself. I got a pretty sweet gig fairly young, but I had to spend a lot of time demonstrating my effectiveness when I think someone older would have not had to. And I was a chick. I was good at my job, but I had a lot to learn about navigation. This brings me to growth and change.
I spent so much time showing people that I had the answers; I knew what to do; I was ON IT. It never occurred to me to even imply that I was not on my game 100%. The implied competence of being over 40 gives me some breathing room to say, “I am working on that…..” “I am still learning….” “You know, I had never thought of it. Give me some time to consider that option.”
I want to be around people who recognize that not knowing everything is OK and that growth, professional or personal, shows depth not weakness.